A Letter To My Mom | In the darkness YOU were my light

Mom

The other day I was rushing around finishing up the last few things I needed to do for my kids for Christmas and I was quickly stopped in my tracks and overwhelmed with gratitude and tears! I was so caught up in all the things I needed to do and hadn’t stopped to think how great I have it as a mom! I have an amazing husband who fills my cup when it’s empty, thinks of me on hard days, takes some of the burdens off, sees the look in my eyes when I just can’t anymore and I can’t imagine how I would do it without him. If you are new to my blog or following me then you might not know that I lost my dad at a very young age. I was 6 when he died in a tragic accident that forever changed our family. My mom was my rock and so many things I took for granted as a child and now being a mom myself I now see her in a new light.

As a little girl I was lost, confused and overwhelmed with sadness. In that dark time the only person who was able to pull my sister & I out of the trenches of losing a parent was my mom. I think back now to those days and the hurt I felt and can’t help but cry, not for me but for my mom. During the darkest days of her life, the days no one should ever have to face, especially at the young age of 36 with two young children, she was a light. She was a light to our family. She was a light to our community. She was everything to us when she had lost the light of her life. I remember her being our strength when I’m sure she was wondering where her strength would come from. I remember her giving, giving, giving and not getting in return yet that never even phased her.

On my hardest days of being a mom I have that support to lean on. I have that love that walks through the door and instantly I feel relieved that someone is here to help. My mom lost that, yet I never remember her being weak or looking lost. I remember love, smiles, laughs and the most amazing mom I could have been blessed with. So for that I am thankful.

I remember praying for my mom as a little girl and wanting her to find someone special & get remarried. I remember asking people if they had anyone they could set my mom up with and it would embarrass her to no end! (poor thing) I always wondered why she never got remarried and now I understand it. In those early years of having two small children her only focus was just that, us. She didn’t let anything in the way of her number one priority which was me and my sister. We came first and I honestly am so in awe of how strong she was during those years. She was never looking for someone to come in and take some of the work load, she knew God was by her side and would get her through anything. I truly think it has shown me how important life is and how important it is to stay faithful to God even in the hard times. In a time where my mom could have been so weak, she was strong, faithful and full of love!

Mom

So To My Mom,

Thank you.

Thank you for all the sacrifices you’ve made.

Thank you for showing me what it means that no one owes you anything in this world. If you want something, you have to work hard for it.

Thank you for your strength.

Thank you for your continued guidance.

Thank you for the many prayers you prayed over us.

Thank you for your heart of gold.

Thank you for all the smiles, the tears, the laughs and the unforgettable moments.

Thank you for being such a light in a dark time.

Thank you for never losing sight of God and what it means to love others first.

Thank you for being a hero to not only me but the many lives that you touch.

Thank you for showing us what it means to truly be a mom. A single mom at that, that never let that be an excuse to be anything but the best.

I am forever changed by you & all you did for us. I pray I am half the mom you are to my kids and that I always remember what it feels like to have someone who loves ME more than they love themselves!

Mom, you are the true definition of “a mother’s love”

This has been weighing on my heart and I just wanted to share with all of you. Moms, single moms, soon-to-be moms, someday moms…Be a light, even in the darkest days. Your kids will remember it. They will be changed by it. They will thank you.

Bailey

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