Kindergarten, it has been on my mind since the day you were born. That gut wrenching feeling of watching you turn your back on me and head into the “big girl” world at school. It’s inevitable and I know that. The excitement all over your face, the questions you keep asking over & over, the preparation you have done and the sparkle in your eyes lets me know you are ready, but that doesn’t mean I am.
From the moment you were born, you needed me. I guided you through every moment of your “little girl” life and I have enjoyed every moment of you being home with me. I got to see everything I wanted from the first steps, first words, first boo-boos to our slow days in pajamas all day (more days than I would like to admit)…I’ve loved it all. As the tears fall from my face I cant help mourn the loss of your “little girl” phase of life, with no worries, no schedules, and me always being right there when you need me! I wonder if we did enough together? Did I teach you how to be a kind hearted person? Did we spend enough time being silly? Did I teach you how to stand your ground even when you might be the only one who does? So many thoughts swirling through my head as each day draws nearer.
As our world’s are both about to change I want you to know how proud I am to be your mom. You are one of the sweetest little girls I know. I know you will do big things in your “big girl” life and I can’t wait to watch you grow. This Kindergarten journey is like the door opening to a whole new world. A world full of things I can no longer control. I pray that I have guided you and instilled enough truth & love into you to make the most of your time in school & in the world. I pray every day for your school, your teachers, and your friends. I pray that not only are they a wonderful impact on you but that you spread love & kindness to everyone you meet and impact so many lives along the way!
Greleigh, you have been my little helper from the start and the best big sister to your brothers. I know that not only will this change be hard on me, but on them as well. A day without you home will seem strange, empty & for sure quiet(er) because we all know you love to talk! You always keep us laughing with everything you say & I’m going to miss my extra set of “mommy eyes” on the boys. I pray that they adapt well to you being gone & hope it allows them to cherish the time when we are all together.
I know that going off to school doesn’t mean you won’t need me. You might even need me more than ever to help you navigate through decisions, tears, and disappointment because unfortunately that comes with the territory, but please know…I am always here for you no matter what. I will love you through anything and continue to instill in you the qualities that will take you far in life!
As we start this journey into school I pray you always stay true to yourself. I pray you make decisions not only with your head but with your heart as well. Trust your gut. Always be kind. Love others and know that you will always have a mama who couldn’t be more proud of you & the things you will do in life!
Kindergarten, ready or not here my baby girl comes!